Friday, December 14, 2012

A day that will never be the same

Like many of you, I have been glued to our television watching the tragic story of the elementary school shooting unfold in front of my eyes. It's heartbreaking. How could someone go into a school and take the lives of so many innocent children and adults? Children- Kindergartners...their very innocence gone within a matter of minutes. It's something that I literally cannot wrap my mind around. Who would do such a thing? 

As a mother, it brought tears to my eyes thinking of the terror that must have gone through the minds of those children. It also brought tears to my eyes thinking of the pure bravery of those teachers and staff who did their best to protect those children... who did their best to shield this tragedy and pain from them. The teachers who gave their own lives today. I look at Gabriel and can't imagine the shear worry, pain, and anger that the parent's must have felt.  

As it has been said many times today... no place is ever really safe. No town, no matter how small or quaint it might be, is safe from tragedies like this. As human beings, we like to see the good in people. We like to give most people the benefit of the doubt. We want to believe that our children are safe when we send them to school. Because let's be honest, a school should be safe.  As we saw today, it doesn't matter what kind of security measures you take, if someone has a will- they will find a way. It's sad, heart-wrenching, and tragic. I'm angry and heartbroken over this story. 

I do have to say that after watching Obama's address of this event... I gained a new respect for the man. I'm not a fan by any means, and in no way did his speech make me want to support him. However, seeing him react as a father of 2 children was very touching... It actually seemed like, for those few minutes, the guy could possibly be a decent human being. Possibly. 

I can't help but wonder what was going through the mind of the shooter. Like many of you, I do not understand how someone could be so angry or ill that they would take the lives of innocent children. I know I'm not a genius in the mental health field... and by no means to I have a doctorate degree to diagnose the guy. But let's be honest here... we can't blame what the guy has done on a mental illness. I'm positive that in the coming days a better picture will be painted for all of us and somehow they will try to blame his behavior on his mental state. I personally don't care how mentally ill you are...you don't take the lives of innocent children. It's that simple. This clearly wasn't an act that was "spur of the moment." It was planned... probably for days, weeks, or even months. This guy clearly knew what he was doing. And I personally find it very cowardly that he would take his own life... It's an easy out. He knew what he was doing- so he took his own life instead of facing the harsh consequences that he ultimately knew he would face... the consequences that he deserves.  

Everyone is trying to find someone to blame. It's human nature... to try to place blame on someone or something... to give us a sense of peace and security. We try to place blame so that somehow we can make sense of something so terrible. I've seen many posts and statements today blaming this tragedy on God. Now, how strange is that? There's a plan for everything, this is true... But to place the blame on God is unthinkable. What's even more contradicting to this? God is the one person that everyone wants to blame, but yet he is the one person that everyone is running to and finding comfort in today... tonight... and for the days to come. We listen to the politics and the "good ole boys" trying to tell us that we should take God out of our schools... that he shouldn't be talked about to our children. We're taught about the theory of evolution in school but we're not taught about the true beginning as told in Genesis. We don't say the Pledge of Allegiance in schools anymore because it might "offend" someone.  The world wants to blame God and then the world complains when he "isn't there." If you ask me... the world needs to stop conforming to what politics say and the world needs to put God back in our schools... In America. In my opinion, when we stood on the statement "One Nation, Under God" we were doing a lot better. Perhaps it's time to go back to the basics America. 

Jesse and I will be holding Gabe a little tighter for now on. We will also never, ever take for granted the pure joy that he brings us and the time that we get to spend with him every single day. Tonight, our prayers go out to the families of Newtown, Connecticut. For we know that their lives will never be the same. 

Monday, December 10, 2012

The Joys of Motherhood

I'd like to fill you all in on some of Gabe's favorite thing's to do these days. He thinks that each and every thing is quite fun and hilarious. Most of the time Mommy agrees...other times, not so much. :) 


  • I've learned that if your child is awake and the house is completely silent... something is in fact wrong. The house should never be completely silent unless your child is napping. So, what does Gabe like to do that keeps him so quiet? Toilet, cabinets, and drawers. Who would think that these 3 things could create such fun!? We've learned to always keep the toilet closed and the bathroom shut. However, I must say that sometimes Mommy and Daddy do fail at doing so. So, when all is silent- the first place I look is the bathroom. If he's not there... the kitchen! You see, along with playing in the toilet (which is quite disgusting), Gabe also finds a lot of fun in taking everything... yes EVERYTHING out of the cabinets and drawers in the kitchen. He's also found a new love for taking his clothes out of his dresser drawers and throwing them around the house. I think I  have my work cut out for me. lol. 
  • If you leave it out, it will be on the floor. Gabe LOVES playing with water bottles. He is fascinated with taking the top on and off...over and over and over. However, he finds it to be more fun when the bottle still has water in it. Guess what happens next? He tries to drink the water and it ends up spilling all over the place! He also like to pick up Mommy and Daddy's cups that are full and carry them around. Unfortunately, they usually only make it a few steps before ending up on the floor. Tonight, Mommy caught him picking up Daddy's drink... But failed to reach it in time before it hit the floor. Oh, the fun! 
  • Recently, Gabe has found that it is a lot of fun to feed Mommy. His most favorite way to do so? Well, he likes to put a piece of food in his mouth, chew it a little, take it out, and try to put it in my mouth. He thinks it's hilarious. Mommy doesn't find it so amusing. The boy is smart though... because he usually tries to continue to shove it into my mouth. He laughs the whole time. He also likes to stuff his mouth full of food and then spit it out. Not fun at all. For some reason he finds it to be funny. Where did he learn this stuff at? haha. 
  • Do you know that app the Talking Cat? There's the talking dog, cat, dinosaur, etc... Well, I have the talking cat on my phone and Gabe loves it. He particularly finds it funny when he screams and the cat screams back. Do you see where I'm going with this? There is a lot of screaming going back and forth between Gabe and that cat. A LOT! 

Sunday, December 9, 2012

Everything Happens for a Reason

Do you all believe the statement "Everything Happens for a Reason?" After everything that we have gone through, we have to force ourselves to believe this statement. Jesse and I will be married for 2 years on January 22nd... and let me tell you, these 2 years have not been easy. You would think that by experiencing and dealing with everything that we have- we would just give up. Most people in our situation would probably crawl in a hole and never come out...I only say that because there have been many times when I have felt like doing so. But still, we have persevered through everything from bed rest, hospital stays, wrecks, snake bites, family conflicts, and job loss. Somehow, through all of the chaos, we have found a way to come out even stronger as a couple and a family. Everything does happen for a reason... it's just that sometimes, that reason doesn't "appear" as soon as we would like. Let me explain a little on what we have learned through our experiences. 

Bed Rest & Hospitals: As you all may know, I was put on bed rest for 2 weeks while pregnant with Gabriel. That was followed by another 2 weeks of rest in the hospital. It was terrible. And yes, I mean terrible. I was bored out of my mind. I wasn't allowed out of the hospital walls until my 2nd week there! But, it had to be done in order to allow Gabriel Lee to grow stronger before he made his appearance into this world. Once Gabe arrived,  we spent another 10 weeks in the hospital at Carbondale and at Cardinal Glennon. It wasn't easy by any means. But thankfully, we had a lot of support and made it through. What did we learn through all of this? First of all, that God can work miracles- just look at my baby boy and you will witness first hand a living miracle! We also learned that even through the toughest times the greatest things can happen. Where would we be without that boy to brighten up every single day? And now we know, that in a situation like that, it is possible to overcome. So in the future, if anyone we know has to experience that same thing, we will be able to tell them that one day it will all be better. And that one day, all of the hardships that you experience will only be a memory and to cherish all of those little moments. 

Wrecks: Let me lay it out for you now. When Jesse and I got married we each had a car. I had a practically new Nissan Altima. It was the first car I had ever gotten on my own. My "Adult Dream Car." I LOVED it... and yes, sometimes I still think about it. haha. Anyway, in a very short time we went from having two nice cars to none. Luckily, we had family that was willing to help us out and now we have 2 cars once again. Did we learn anything through this? Yes. First off- to NOT swerve to miss a deer! haha. And most importantly, that you don't have to have the nicest things in life all of the time. You see, I like NICE things and I  like new cars. So this for me was hard to comprehend. But I now realize that it's not all about having the "nicest" of something... it's about having the necessities that you need to keep your family safe and taken care of. 

Snake Bites: Oh boy... do we ever have a big lesson to learn here. I mean seriously, who really gets bit by a snake? Really!? This is one of those situations where Jesse and I literally look back and are like... "Did that really happen?" Yes, in fact it did. I think the biggest thing that we learned was that anything can literally happen at any time. I can't say that we really understand exactly why this happened... at least not yet. It's a situation that I'm sure does have a more significant purpose, but  that purpose just hasn't been revealed yet. 

Family Conflict: Wow... have we ever learned from our conflict. If you have followed my blog at all then you know exactly what I am talking about. I think I'm the one that has learned the most through all of this. It took me a very long time to learn to bite my tongue when I just want to scream. As I have said before, I definitely have not done too well at doing so at all times. I'm still confused as to why someone would literally act as if Jesse isn't married to me and would try to convince him to get a divorce. And I definitely do not understand why someone would not want a relationship with my child. But to each their own, right? I've learned, through all of this, that I cannot change someone to be the person I want them to be. I realize that for some people the only role models they have had in life are people that society looks down upon. I have learned that once words are spoken they cannot be taken back- which is why I chose my words very carefully. I've learned that some women just cannot stand up for their own children for fear of being alone. And I've learned that sometimes, my child is better off without certain people in his life. I think Jesse and I have both learned that we cannot defend anyone when there is nothing to defend and that we cannot always rely on someone who we should be able to rely on. We've definitely learned that some people are just plain selfish and will never fully grow out of it and that some people are just jealous and cannot stand to see someone else's happiness. It's sad, but true. It has taken me a very, very long time to come to terms with these things and I will admit, I am still working on it. However, I believe that these are vital lessons that I have learned so far. 

And Finally, job loss. Jesse lost his job and is now searching for another. It's hard to comprehend and it's something that I still get angry about. But it is what it is and there's nothing we can do to change it. We're forced to believe that this too happened for a reason. Since everything else that we have endured has taught us something, I'm positive that this will also  be a learning experience for us. I have to believe that there are only bigger and better things out there for our family. We may not know exactly where we are going in life just yet...but rest assured that one day, we will figure it out. 

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Tis The Season!

I've been working very hard the past few days on getting some items ready to take to the studio to start selling. It's hard to get things done with Gabe home. My little man has a fascination with the needle on the embroidery machine... which ultimately means that he likes to try to stick his little fingers in it all of the time. Luckily, I've set up my machine in the kitchen for now- Once we get all of our Christmas decor up and everything moved to the basement I will be moving it into our porch/sunroom area! Anyway, as I was saying... it's much easier to work when Gabe is not home. So, yesterday Gabe got to spend some quality time with Mama and I got to work ALL. DAY. LONG! I'm pretty proud of my creations so far... I'm getting better everyday! Here's some pics of what I worked on yesterday and last week! I also made Emeri a birthday shirt (which I forgot to take a picture of!) I'm a little upset since it turned out sooo cute! :) 







Monday, November 26, 2012

16 Weeks!

Yes, I know... I've been slacking in the baby updating area. However, I am bound and determined to update you all every week beginning now! As of today, I am officially 16 weeks! Can you believe it? We are 4 weeks away from being half-way done! Whew! Now, if only we can stay on track and not develop complications... we will be on a roll. I don't have a belly picture to post tonight- but I promise I will have Jesse take one in the morning. So... here's the info on Baby Schiff. 

- Weight Gain: I've actually lost about 12 pounds since Jesse and I found out that we are expecting. I'm definitely trying to gain a few (the healthy way) but it's just not happening since I've been sick every day. I'm hoping that the sickness will go away very, very soon! With Gabe, I was done being sick by week 16! So fingers crossed that it happens soon with Baby #2!! On the other hand... my belly is starting to look more like a pregnant belly which I am very happy about. I'm ready to look less fat and more pregnant! haha. 

- What I'm craving these days: caffeine! which is bad! lol. So, I've definitely been trying to cut back and drink lots of water. I crave pizza a lot and mozzarella sticks from Arby's and Sonic! YUM! However, I have been sick every single day- so nothing really ever sounds good!  


- How I'm feeling: Tired! Very, very tired! Pregnancy along with keeping up with Gabe all day wears me out. I wouldn't trade it for anything... but I must say that a nap while my boy is napping is always nice! 


- What I don't like:  Being sick EVERY. SINGLE. DAY!! Oh & the headaches. I've been getting awful headaches throughout the day... they are NOT fun at all!!  If I have any aversions to food it would probably be vegetables at the moment. For some reason, the thought of veggies makes me cringe these days. I'm trying to overcome this since I know that veggies are good for me! I'm a work in progress! 


- Sleep: Strangely, I have been sleeping very well. We all know I like to sleep on my stomach and that is getting harder to do. Since I'm always tired...sleep comes a lot easier these days! 


- What I'm looking forward to: Our Reveal!! We have exciting plans for revealing Baby Schiff's gender! I can't wait to find out what we are having. Of course, I would like a girl... but I will be happy as long as our baby is healthy and strong! 


- Size of Baby Schiff: Right now, Baby is about the size of an avocado. Around 4.5 inches long and 3.5 ounces. 

- Baby Schiff's development this week: Baby's legs are much more developed and his/her head is more erect than it has been previously. THey eyes are moving closer to the front of the head and ears are close to their final position. He/She has even started growing toenails! 


-Message to Baby Schiff from Mommy: You were definitely a little surprise my child... but a very, very good surprise! I can't wait to meet you and I'm so excited that Gabriel will have a little brother or sister soon! I know that he will be the BEST BIG Brother anyone could ever ask for. I pray that you grow healthy and strong and that you enjoy your little home inside Mommy until your due date! :) Know that you are already very much loved and we are all so excited to meet you soon! 



Thursday, November 22, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving!

Well, for those of you who know me- you know that taking the high road isn't always my style. However, lately I've found myself keeping my mouth closed and not telling someone exactly what I think. Much at the request of my husband. Because in his words... "you don't want to be responsible for her crying her eyes out every night." Well, I guess that is true but there are days when I so desperately want to speak my mind. So today, I'm thankful for this scripture: 


Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord.
--Romans 12:19 

I'm thankful to know that revenge is taken care of through God. Though there are times when I just want to scream at the top of my lungs, I can rest assured in knowing that all things will be properly handled according to Jesus. 

Seeing that today is Thanksgiving I'd also like to say what else I am thankful for. I am thankful for our family and friends. For the support that we always get. I'm thankful for the one person who tries to convince Jesse to divorce me... you have only made our marriage stronger! I'm thankful for my 2 handsome boys who keep my life interesting and busy! I'm thankful for all of the new life that will be coming into our families next year! I'm thankful for peace within my little family. I'm thankful for our health, job, and home. I'm thankful for all of the blessings that continue to come into our lives. I'm thankful for the struggles because they have only made us stronger today. 

Hope Everyone has a Great Thanksgiving and a fun-filled Black Friday!!! :) 

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Just an update!

Well, it's been a few days since I've posted...so here's the latest scoop on the Schiff family! :) 

I won't lie- part of the reason for my delayed post has been because I seem to have somehow gotten like 3 tiny blood blisters on my middle finger on my left hand. It hurts... and to make it worse, I have no idea what happened to cause them! OWIE- as Gabe would say! But tonight, I'm pushing through and posting anyway... even though every hit of the button with that finger sends a slight sting through my fingers. 

I've been busy the past few nights getting things ready for the shop I'm opening up with Amber. I've decided to HOPEFULLY have enough things ready to open OFFICIALLY the first week of December! So far, I LOVE my new embroidery machine! It's going to take me a few more tries to get everything perfected- But I am very confident and excited! 

Gabriel is getting busier and busier every single day. I can't believe the new things that he can discover in just 24 hours! A few days ago, however, we did have to have a very long talk about bedtimes and wake up times. You see, Mommy needs her rest and waking up before 8:00 a.m. is not acceptable. And leave it to my favorite little boy to wake up just before 8:00 on most mornings. So, we had a little discussion about not waking until after 8:00! haha. And you know what!? He listened! haha. My boy didn't wake up until 8:07 the next morning! Mommy was SO proud! haha. 

This week is going to be very, very busy and relaxing for us. Gabe has a follow up appointment at Cardinal Glennon this week (he will continue to have appointments there until he is 2). And then it's time to celebrate THANKSGIVING! YAY! Jesse only has to work 3 nights this week and then he's off! So that means that we will get Wednesday, Thursday, and the whole weekend together! Our only plans are to celebrate Thanksgiving with my family on Thanksgiving Day and then relax, relax, relax! I'm going to buy some more materials this week for making things... so that is also on my list of things to do. Oh & putting up our Christmas Decorations!!! Can't forget that! I'm sooooo excited!!! 

Alright friends, that's about it for tonight. Baby updates will start this coming week as well! Can you believe that we will be at 15 week already!? Where has the time gone!? Have a good one!

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Thankful

So, I was going to post on how amusing it is to Jesse and I that only he and Gabe got invited to his mother's house for Thanksgiving. Instead, I think I'll rise above and post about some things that I am grateful for. 

I'm Thankful for: 


  • God- he's always shown up for us exactly when we needed him.
  • My husband, Gabriel, and our future child. These guys make me laugh and smile everyday... as well as lose sleep! haha. 
  • My parents- without them I don't know where Jesse and I would be today and I don't know what Gabe would do without them. 
  • Jesse's dad and Stepmother- They've shown me nothing but love and kindness and have always loved all of us without question. 
  • All of our brothers, sisters, sister in laws, brother in laws, nieces and nephews (and future nieces and nephews). 
  • The removal of a certain person from our lives. Jesse and I finally have peace and happiness in our lives and Gabriel now only has 2 sets of grandparents that will always love him unconditionally without question. 
  • Our friends. 
  • Our Grandparents- for always loving us and loving our child. 
  • Having a roof over our head and food in our fridge. 
  • Late nights and early mornings with Gabe. 
  • Being able to stay at home with my baby boy. 
  • My husband being able to provide for us. 
  • The shop that I will be opening with a good friend in a few weeks.  
  • The future- because I know it can only get better. :) 

Sunday, November 11, 2012

The Good, The Bad, The Hospital!?

The Good:: 

We have some very exciting news! I will be opening up a shop with my good friend (and our photographer), Amber Joiner. I will be selling custom items that I make with my embroidery machine as well as hairbows, tutu's, and more! I am SO excited. Jesse and I decided to start out by doing a 3 month "trial" period... I guess that's what you would call it. We want to make sure that I will be bringing in more money than we put it. However, it is the perfect timing- since it is Holiday Season- and I'm so looking forward to it! We have prayed about this decision a lot and feel like taking this chance is the best way to go. Keep you fingers crossed and say lots of prayers for us! :) 

Also- we will be entering our 2nd trimester this Tuesday!! Can you believe it? Time is FLYING! Only about 6 more weeks until we can find out what we are having. And OH I can't wait to tell you all the plans we have for our reveal! It's going to be great! :)) 

The Bad:: 


Let me first start by saying that even though I find pregnancy to be a miraculous, beautiful thing... It is absolutely KILLING me this time around. I mean, seriously! If you all remember my last pregnancy, then you might remember all of that morning sickness that I had. It was miserable. Especially since I was working full time then... it wasn't easy being sick all day while working. I'm thankful that this time around I'm lucky enough to get to stay at home all day...However, I have been sick EVERY SINGLE DAY. I'm not lying... literally- every day!! At first it was all day, every day. Here lately, I've been mainly getting sick in the late afternoon/evening. Regardless, it's not fun... at all. It's definitely not easy, especially since I have my favorite little man to keep up with all day too! Needless to say, I'm EXHAUSTED by the end of the day. Like now for example, I could literally lay down right now and pass out. Pregnancy does not treat me well. With that said, I did see our doctor this week- so keep you fingers crossed that this pregnancy goes better than the last. He said that my chances of developing pre-eclampsia this time around  drastically decrease since this is my 2nd pregnancy. Though, I am at a much higher risk than most since I did develop it previously. Ugh! Can you say nervous? We definitely can't afford for me to be put on bedrest or in the hospital this time around!! So we're saying lots and lots of prayers that it will not happen!! 

The Hospital?:: 

Yep, you guessed it- we had to make a trip to the hospital this week! Let me tell you- it was NOT fun. My little man was playing at McDonald's on Thursday with his cousin, Emeri. They were heading up to go back down the slide (something they had done plenty of times before). Well, my little man was walking up the stairs when he slipped and fell. I ran over to them and picked him up. I thought he had just bumped his head- until I saw blood coming out all over my hands. He had a big cut right on the bone under his eyebrow! It was terrible. I got some cold, wet napkins and ice to put on it- but as you can imagine, keeping them on there was a whole other story. Gabe did not like it at all.   There was a lady in the playland area that was a nurse or something and she said that the doctor's would probably just glue it or put a butterfly band-aid on it with some neosporin. So, I walked over to Kmart and bought some bandaids and neosporin. We put it on- but it wasn't working. Gabe started playing again- but the cut would not stop bleeding. Mom and I decided that we better take him to the doctor. I took Gabe to the walk-in clinic in West Frankfort. The doctor came out and looked at it before we even signed in- and told me that I needed to take him to the hospital because he probably needed stitches and he didn't have the correct stitch there. So, we packed up and headed to the ER. Boy, was that fun! The doctor tried to tape his little cut so we could avoid stitches. That didn't work. So, we had 2 options after that. Stitches or not to anything. Both had risks. But not doing anything carried a greater risk for an infection and a bigger scar. So, stitches it was! I'm sure all of you mothers out there who have had to watch your children get stitches can agree with me that it is absolutely terrible. I hated every single minute of it. I think it's harder on me since I'll remember it and Gabe probably wont' remember it at all. Anyway, he did great. He screamed the entire time...but when they were done he blew the doctor and nurses a kiss and told them BYE! He was READY for them to leave him alone! haha. So now, we have 3 stitches and some really awesome Mickey Mouse Band-aids! His little eye is still bruised but it looks so much better. He doesn't even act like it bothers him at all...Thank Goodness! (I want to also say that accidents do happen all of the time with children. I almost didn't blog about this event- because I know that it will give some an advantage to talk badly about my parenting and to find some way to somehow use it against me. Sad, I know...but it is the truth.  However, I want to be honest in my blog and I want Gabe to have every memory recorded- the good and the bad. So please, don't judge my parenting...every child has accidents and when you have a baby boy as active and on the move as mine- you will see how these things can happen. That is all.) 

Anyway folks, that's the latest update in the Schiff household. Now, it's time for this Mommy to go to bed. I'm exhausted. 







Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Haircuts and Doctors and Shots...Oh MY!

Well, today is voting day! I'm currently glued to my tv watching the election results. My little man decided to go to bed at 7:00- which most likely means a very early wake up call for Mommy! So, I figured I'd get my post in early tonight since I'll be heading to bed early! haha. Anyway, I want to give you all a little update on my favorite little man! 

On Friday, we headed to the doctor's office for a check-up and shots. Since we haven't had insurance for a few months, we've held off on getting his shots. However, now that we have insurance we figured it was time to get caught up! We saw our doctor's P.A. on Friday. I'm VERY happy to report that Gabriel is 99% on Target for his age! How amazing is that? My little man who was 10 weeks early and had such a rough start isn't behind at all! I'm so very proud of my little man! The only thing that he isn't doing so well on is being weaned off of his bottle. However, I must say that we are making progress since our visit to the doctor!

Next, we had to get some shots! My little man was soooo good during them too! He cried when they gave him the shots and then when the nurses were done he blew them a kiss!! Who knows- it very well could have been goodbye kiss too! haha. Gabe had 6 shots to get- however, we decided to only give him 3 that day. He will get the other 3 (or 2) in about 6 weeks. We are still debating whether or not to give him the MMR shot right now. {I'm well aware that some might not agree with this decision... but as parents, we feel that we are making the best decision for our child and family}

Moving on, yesterday, November 5, Gabriel got his very 1st haircut. He no longer has a little pony tail in the back...Thank Goodness! haha. However, a few of his little curls in the front are gone.. and this has made Mommy & Daddy very, very sad. He does look much better though! 

Also, a little update on Christmas! We are FINISHED buying for our little man! Can you believe it? I've never been finished with anyone this early! We still have a few little things to get- and we have to finish getting his books and some things for his "Christmas Eve" box... but all of his BIG gifts are finished! Whew! I can wipe that off of my to-do list! 

Alright friends, that's about it for tonight! I'm going to finish some laundry, finish cleaning the kitchen up, and then watch the election results! Have a good one! 

Monday, November 5, 2012

Words & Favorites!

Today I want to do a little update on my favorite little boy! As I've said before, I want this to be like a baby book for Gabe. We are going to turn this blog into a book soon, and I want all of his "milestones" documented for him to look back on. So today, I'm going to list all of the words that my baby boy says these days as well as a few of his favorite things! :) 

Words: 


  1. Mama
  2. Papa
  3. Momma
  4. Dada
  5. Duck
  6. Stop
  7. Go
  8. Up
  9. Fan
  10. Oh (for UH-OH) 
  11. It
  12. Ba-Ba (for bottle) 
  13. No
Favorites: 

  • Book: Guess How Much I Love You
  • Toy: Scout
  • Time of Day: Bath Time! 
  • Drink: Apple Juice
  • Food: Macaroni
  • Snack: Popcorn!

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Credit, Credit, Credit

Let's get serious for a moment! Today, I want to talk a little about credit scores. Does anyone else find credit scores absolutely annoying? Isn't it just plain ridiculous that almost everything is based off of your credit? It's like, you can be a good person, pay all of your bills on time, and still not have good credit- only because at one point you experienced a rough time. 

Now, let's get a little personal, shall we? A year and a half ago, I had a GREAT credit score. A 750 in fact. Actually, I was very proud of this score- at 22 years old I felt like this high of a score was some sort of accomplishment. Enter a whirlwind of unforeseen obstacles that would come our way. Obstacles such as hospital stays, totaled cars, more hospital bills, cars blowing up, snake bites, and the list goes on and on and on... Now, I know it's not an excuse but while Gabe was in the hospital for those 2 months our credit card bills were the furthest thing from our mind. I know, I know... some of you are probably sitting there right now saying to yourself... "Oh my goodness, are you crazy?" and then some of you are probably sitting there thinking "yeah, I would have done the same thing." But still, regardless of any thoughts or opinions, I can tell you that this was the worst move we have ever made. 

So since then, it has been a constant battle of getting caught up and raising our credit scores. I'm happy to report that we are on our way to having good credit scores again. I was thrilled when I looked at my credit score tonight and found that it was 150 points higher than I thought it was. WHOA! 

I know it's going to be a very long process to get both of our scores to that "Perfect" level that we'd like to be at. But hey, at least we're taking the steps to get well on our way. Our first steps have been to cut back on our spending and setting up a weekly budget. I write down all of the bills that are due each week and each month. We have a BIG calendar hanging on our fridge along with our budget plan for the week. That way, we both know what we have to pay and what we can spend for the week. Once we spend our allotted amount of "spending" money, we don't spend any more. I must say, for me, this was hard...because we all know how much I LOVE to shop. But, it's like Dave Ramsey says, "If you can live like no one else, later you can live like no one else." So, that's what we are trying to do. I won't lie, it hasn't been an easy transition and we struggle all the time with this. But I keep reminding myself that this will be worth it in the end. We have also started tithing to our church each week. We don't tithe 10% right now but we do what we can. I'm a strong believer in the fact that if you tithe to the church then you will be blessed. Though I know that these are only small steps that we have taken- I feel like they are steps in the right direction. 

So, my dear friends, I invite you along on this wild ride of credit scores. My goal is to have our credit scores in the "good" range within 6 months and the "great" range within 1 year. Let's see how this goes... 

Friday, November 2, 2012

The Blunt, Honest, Kinda Hilarious Truth about Motherhood

So, motherhood brought on a totally new and life changing experience for me. I took everyone's advice and prepared myself the best that I could with all of the stories I was told. BUT, what about the stuff people don't tell you about? Here's what I've learned since becoming a mother {the Blunt, Honest, Kinda hilarious truth!}


  1. You will never be able to use the bathroom alone... again. 
  2. Showering in peace is a thing of the past. 
  3. All doors, drawers, and toilet seats must remained closed. 
  4. "Climbing" will have a whole new meaning with a toddler. 
  5. Sleeping past 8:00 a.m. no longer exists. 
  6. You will also not need an alarm clock anymore. 
  7. Peaceful shopping trips will be few and far between. 
  8. People will always tell you their opinions on your parenting... whether you ask for them or not. 
  9. Always hide your remote & keys- unless you want to hunt for them. 
  10. In order to be on time, you must prepare and leave an extra 20 minutes early. 
  11. You will have to pull all-nighters... whether you want to or not. 
  12. A toddler doesn't care if your pregnant or not... be prepared to still go at warp speed, sick or not. :) 
  13. The bathtub is no longer just a tub... it's a play land! 
  14. If you have a boy- you are bound to get peed on at least once... if not more. 
  15. They will poop their pants...even if you just changed them! 
  16. The price of toys doesn't matter... 
  17. Sometimes, a cup is more impressive to your child than a $50 toy! 
  18. As a mother, you will learn every Fisher Price and Little Tikes song ever invented. 
  19. You will learn to recite these songs, word for word, while driving in the car! 
  20. Kids have a sixth sense when it comes to technology... they prefer your iPhone over a toy phone... any day! 
  21. Your toddler will know more about an iPad than you ever will... 
  22. You will learn to speak "jibberish" to the best of your ability... 
  23. If you leave it out... be prepared for it to get thrown on the floor, torn up, put in the mouth, or lost. 
  24. And FINALLY, be prepared to LOVE more than you could ever imagine possible! It's a crazy ride- but well worth it! :) 

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Pictures= Keepsakes!

A few months ago I did a post on our favorite photographer, Amber, owner of You-nique Capture Photography. I wanted to share a few of the photos that she has taken for us over the past year with you all. I'm positive that you'll see why we love her as much as we do when you see these pictures! I must say, I'm a bit obsessed when it comes to pictures- especially of my little man. I think it's a great way to capture Gabe growing up... and they also make great keepsakes. Our house is literally filled with pictures- so much so that I've had to do some rearranging to find hanging space for all of them. What in the world am I going to do when we have 2 kids and all of their pictures!? I'm going to need a bigger house, for sure! One with lots and lots of wall space and hallways to fill! Anywho, here's some of our pictures from Amber! You can visit her webstite by clicking HERE or you can click on the link on the right hand side of the page! :) Enjoy! 


{please respect her hardwork and do NOT copy these pictures! Thanks!}



I LOVE this picture!! 
Seriously, one of my favorites!




This is a collage from all of Gabe's sessions! LOVE it!!




LOVE this pic of Gabe and Daddy! Gotta support Daddy's USMC days!


Adorable!! Seriously, can you beat this? 

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Expiring: SOON!



The Rumors are True!!
Here Comes #2! 

We are so excited to start our next journey as a Family! 

Join us as we go through another pregnancy... 
this too shall be interesting! 

As Always, there will never be a dull moment!

{don't you just love Gabe's shirt? It says: Only Child Expiring: Soon!!}

Photo courtesy of Our Favorite Photographer
Amber Joiner from 

Click the above link to visit her website!  

Please Do Not Copy! 



Sunday, October 28, 2012

Toys, Toys, Toys!

Well, after church today, Gabe and I went on a little shopping date. We enjoyed some lunch at Fazoli's and then hit up Goodwill, Target, and Kays. Boy, was Mommy TIRED after all this running around. I must say, I love my little man, but he really needs to learn how enjoy shopping! haha. 


We started our afternoon off at Fazoli's. This was Mommy & Gabe's first time dining alone- just us. And was I ever in for a surprise! It actually went well, besides the fact that they were all out of highchairs- so I had to use a booster seat for Gabe. Which isn't that big of a deal, except it had no straps to strap him in...which means my little man had free reign to get up and down- whenever he felt like it. And yep, you guessed it, he did just that! haha. Other than that, he was awesome! He enjoyed a few breadsticks, a couple bites of pizza and spaghetti. Mainly, he enjoyed watching all of the people in the restaurant! 

Next, we were off to Goodwill! I was on the hunt for some more books for Christmas and a few toys for Gabe at Goodwill. It seems that everyone is loving Goodwill these days- so I didn't have much luck at finding anything there today. I did manage to find one book and a new pillow for Gabe's room- but that was it. Nothing like my usual shopping trips to the GW! 

After GW- we headed to Target! I love Target! We were getting Gabe some new toys with his gift cards from his birthday. My little man was soooo good in this store. I bought him some popcorn when we first walked in- which kept him pretty happy throughout our time there. Once we found a toy he liked- I knew we were set to have a nice shopping trip there. We left with a couple new toys, a book, and some black pants for my little man. Oh & of course the popcorn! 

Finally, we were off to Kays! This is where my little man started to get a little mad. He fell asleep during the 2 minute car ride around the mall to Kays. I got his stroller out- thinking that he would stay asleep while we were in there. BOY WAS I EVER WRONG! haha. He popped right up as soon as I laid him down. So, I gathered all of our gear and headed inside.... hoping that he would stay calm! What I didn't anticipate was them being really busy. So, we had to wait for about 10 minutes. You might say that nothing can really happen in 10 minutes- but let me just tell you--- that's wrong! Here's what can happen in 10 minutes:: Gabe crawled out of his stroller and took off walking as fast as he could. Mommy chased him and caught him! Gabe took off again. Mommy went after him again and again and again and again. Do you get the picture? haha. Can you imagine just how tired Mommy was!? Of course everyone in the store thought he was the cutest little boy ever. And I won't lie- he is pretty stinkin' adorable. But man, he really needs to learn to stay by Mommy when shopping! 

Anyway, I want to mention these toys that I just absolutely LOVE. It's the B.Toys Brand at Target. I just love the look of their toys- and find them very well made and intriguing- especially to Gabe. Here's a few of the toys that are on my wishlist for Gabe this year: 


Ok- so this is super expensive and def not worth the price since he probably wouldn't play with it that much. But still, it's super cute. I'd go for something  just like this- only cheaper! :)) 


What child doesn't love making music? 


Again...can't beat making music!!


I actually bought him this for Christmas!! shhh....it's a secret! :)) 


Every child needs a Dr. Kit! 

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Impeccable Timing

It's amazing how God's timing is perfect. He knows exactly when to remove certain things in life in order to provide us with a better future.  I must say, now my family can have some actual peace in our lives. For the past year or so- it's been a battle- with people continually talking badly about our marriage and me as a mother. We've had to bite our tongues more than once and fake a smile a million times- just trying to do the right thing. I've listened to people say that I'm a bad mother and wife and that they believed the could raise MY son better than I. I've also been threatened with rights that don't even exist in the state of Illinois. Hmmmm, interesting, huh?  haha.  I've also had the oh so great opportunity of listening to someone tell me that I need counseling- only because our views, opinions, and way of life are different. It wasn't always easy being a bigger person- and I'm ashamed to admit that sometimes my temper got the best of me. However, with a lot of prayer.... I hoped and prayed that one day things would get better and we as a family could go on with our lives in peace. It's amazing how God knows exactly the right time to take things away and put them in your life. I'm at a point where I don't need stress in my life in order to keep my blood pressure down. God knew that- and he removed the point of stress for me. Now, I can live in peace and not have to constantly worry about when the next ball will drop. I'm so thankful for that. And I'm thankful that my family will now be able to live our lives how we want and not try to please anyone. I'm thankful that this all ended before Gabe was old enough to remember anything- and now he can live a full life surrounded by the people who truly love him.  I'm thankful that now, finally, Jesse and I don't have to worry about stabs at our marriage or at our parenting. We are now living the good, peaceful life we deserve!

Monday, October 22, 2012

I Pray for You




Pray For You
Jaron & The Long Road to Love




I haven't been to church since I don't remember when
Things were going great '˜til they fell apart again
So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do
He said you cant go hating others who have done wrong to you.
Sometimes we get angry, but we must not condemn.
Let the good Lord do His job and you just pray for them.

I pray your brakes go out running down a hill
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the 
head like I'd like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you're flying high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are honey, I pray for you

I'm really glad I found my way to church
'Cause I'm already feeling better and I thank God for his words.
Yeah I'm going take the high road,
And do what the preacher told me to do,
You keep messing up and I'll keep praying for you.

I pray your tire blows out at 110.
I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend and wake up with 
his and her tattoos.

I pray your brakes go out running down a hill.
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the 
head like I'd like to.
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you're flying high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are, near or far, in your house or in your 
car,
wherever you are honey, I pray for you.
I pray for you