Things have got to get better

I don't want to be a complainer and drown myself in self-pity, but these past few weeks/months have been very trying and that's about the only thing left to do it seems. Let me break it down for you:: The week before Gabe was flown to StL Jesse's Jeep broke down. Then Gabe was flown to StL and we were down to one car. It was ok at first, but then Jesse got his job and one car has made managing traveling back and forth to StL difficult. Luckily, my brother had an extra car that he let me borrow. With my fabulous luck these days, it broke down on me last week on the interstate when I was on my way home. Yes, that was an ordeal that I'd like to forget about. It made me realize I realllyyy need to stop watching criminal shows, because all i could think of was how people get murdered on the sides of interstates. But thank God it was in the middle of the day and my uncle was nearby to come help. So, once again, we were back to one car. Then, today, Jesse and I were on our way up to StL in our new Jeep and guess what!? It broke down 45 minutes from home. Man, we really can't catch a break. 


Like I said, I don't want to complain or sound like I want a lot of sympathy. I'm well aware of the fact that we are very blessed and that there are probably millions of people who have it worse than we do, but lately it seems like everything that could go wrong in our life, does go wrong. 


Now, I know that God has a reason for all of this. I know that somehow Jesse and I will come out stronger in the end. But right now, it just doesn't feel that way. Now we have both of our jeeps that need to be fixed and let's face it, we don't have an extra couple of thousand dollars just sitting around for car repairs. Honestly, who does? 


I don't expect any sympathy, I just needed to get that off of my mind and write. Writing is honestly a way that I can relieve my stress. I like to write...hence this blog. :)


I know everything happens for a reason, and like I said, I'm sure we'll come out stronger. But, a break would be nice..I'd love for my son to be home, both of our cars to be fixed, and no more major problems to go wrong for awhile. I'm trying to see the good in this, but it's hard. really hard. 


I wish Gabe was home. It seems like every time he starts to get better and him coming home seems closer, something happens and we're back to another week. I swear, we've heard another week, another month for so long now....i really don't even know why we ask anymore. I'm praying that it's soon. That'd be a huge relief. 


Well, it's bedtime now. We got a long day ahead of us. I'd like to leave you with one of my favorite songs right now. It's the songs "A Little Bit Stronger" by Sara Evans. I know it's intended more for relationships, but I believe this song can relate to any hardship in life. Jesse and I are definitely learning to get stronger each day...with Gabe being in the hospital and all of our car troubles lately! :) 


Goodnight Friends!