Sticks and Stones

"Sticks and Stones may break my bones,

but words will never hurt me."

How many times have you heard this saying in your life? I know that I've heard it  A LOT! But then when you stop to think about... you realize that it's really not that true at all. Yes, sticks and stones may break your bones...but words, well let's be honest here... they hurt. Especially the very, very hurtful words that are said. And once hurtful words are said, you can't take them back. No matter how badly you may want to...you just can't. And we can say "forgive and forget" but is it really that easy? I know for me, it's not. I'll forgive...yes, that the simple part. But forgetting!? I know that this is the hardest thing for me to do. No matter what, those things are always engraved into your brain and heart and will never be forgotten. And actions... bad or good, they are also in there as well. Let's face it people, forgetting isn't easy at all. And sure, as time passes, the sting of the pain will eventually fade but it will Always, Always be there. And even if you apologize and sincerely mean it, it's still there. The past is the past... but like I said, it will forever be engraved into your brain.

Yesterday, I posted on 3 truths that I know to be true. Here's a few more...

4. Jesse and I did NOT get married just because I was pregnant. And if you just started following my blog, I'm sure you've put 2 and 2 together and figured out that yes, I was pregnant at our wedding. Anywho, like I said, this was not the reason why we got married. Sure, it did speed up the process and changed a few things. But we were planning on getting married anyway...Because we LOVED each other and wanted to spend the rest of our lives together. So no, we did NOT get married just because I was pregnant. We got married because we loved each other and we wanted to bring our son into the world with 2 parents...into a family that loved him and supported him no matter what. So please, don't EVER, EVER question my marriage or suggest anything otherwise.

5. Did we have the perfect beginning or the perfect first year? Heck NO! We've literally been through hell and back. We've had to face more trials in our first year as a family than most face in the first 5 years. We endured a very, very tough pregnancy, 2 weeks of bedrest, another 2 weeks in the hospital, and then another 2 1/2 months in the hospital with our son. We watched our son struggle for his life those first few days and weeks. We got a call at 8:30 in the morning saying they were life-flighting our son to StL because they couldn't figure out what was wrong with him. We cried tears of worry, hope, and joy... a lot. We questioned ourselves as parents and wondered if it was something we had done to cause this...when our Dr. kept assuring us that we did not cause it. But then, who wouldn't question themselves? We've faced more car troubles in this first year than most people see their entire lives. We've seen our share of financial troubles and family problems. But still, through hell and back, we held on tight to each other and held on tight to the rope that was dragging us...knowing that God had a plan and a reason for all of this to happen to us. So again, don't ever question my marriage!!

6. I respect the people that respect me. There's not too much to explain here. I respect those that give me a little respect in return. I don't beat around the bush and I don't pretend that things aren't ok when they are or that things are ok when they are not. Like everyone else on this earth, I'm a person too and I do have feelings and a heart. And when I'm hurt or upset, I take that to heart. I take things seriously. I surround myself with good people that I love and care about and that I know love and care about me. So, moral of this point... respect given = respect in return.

7. I have a great family and great friends. I was raised with a family that taught me love, respect, and kindness. I know they will always be by my side no matter what and love me unconditionally. I have a best friend that I can talk to about anything. We love the same things and hate the same things. And I know that even if she doesn't agree with something I say/do... she will still respect my decision and support me. As she knows I will do for her. I have a good set of friends that I'd kill for because I consider them family. I know they will Always, Always be there for me no matter what.

Anywho, that's about it for tonight friends. Just had to get that all out there. I hope you all have a great weekend! We're going to see a movie tomorrow night with a couple of friends and then hopefully hanging with some friends on Sunday. Truth be told, the Superbowl is probably the only football game I watch each year. Football is my favorite sport...it's so intense and intriguing to watch. There's never a dull moment! haha. Plus, I always like to tune in to see the commercials and the half-time show!

Have a good one friends!